Queensday

Hello everybody,

Here am I again. I have to say I am feeling better now. I had a lot of long talks with Cyn and I finally see what she wanted me to understand. So now I am working on it and I think it's going better already.

Today it's queensday in The Netherlands and I have the day off. Unfortunatly Cyn had to go to work this morning. Yesterday was my last day at DHL and now I won't be working for a while. The 12th of May I have an second appointment wat Quantore in Beuningen and I really hope whey will give me the job. I really don't want to be workless. I hate that. But that's still 1.5 week away. Today I tried to clean a bit and make some stuff ready for tomorrow. Tomorrow Cyn and I will be leaving for Bonn in Germany. We're going to FedCon. Really looking forward to that. I really hope we will be having a great time but before we can leave. AGAIN, my car needs to be fixed. The stupid thing don't want to start so now and then and that's more now than than. Ow how I hate that. I sometimes feel like I did not do a good job buying the car. It feels like I am only having trouble with the stupid thing. Now Tiny and George are looking at it. This morning I had a look with George. We changed the accu but that wasn't it He things it's a cable and he needed Tiny's bridge to change it. So I really hope it will be fixed and we can go to Bonn withour restless thoughts.

That's it for now people. Have a great evening and weekend.

Cheers

Joyce

Reply

I just read Cyn her reply. Well... I did change the covers and took a bath now.
Asking myself now: Where will this end. Where am I trying to work on...
I don't know. Think I have a whole evening and night ahead to think about it and I will... I guess

Have a nice Friday evening.
I am going to bed early and think..... TO THINK...

Joyce

Don't say it's to late

Hey everybody,

Here am I again. Found this song when I was looking for a tattoo for Cyn. The song is from Westlife. I love the text. Tell's you how I feel at the moment:

Don't say it's too late

It doesn't take much to learn
when the bridges that you burn
Leave you stranded feeling alone
I doesn't take much to cry
When you're living in a lie
And deceiving that someone who cares
If I could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life

Chorus
And I, would risk it all for you
to prove my love is true
I'll build a wall around my heart
that would only break a part for you
Can change the way I feel
so tel me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say it's too late

And now, the hills are getting hard to climb
I'm runnin' out of time
My decisions are pending on you
And I will accept the blame
for burnin' out the flame
Hoping the story will twist once again
If I could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life

And I, would risk it all for you
to prove my love is true
I'll build a wall around my heart
that would only break a part for you
Can change the way I feel
so tel me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say it's too late

Now I'm, layin' it all on the line, for you

And I, would risk it all for you
to prove my love is true
I'll build a wall around my heart
that would only break a part for you
Can change the way I feel
so tel me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say it's too late

And I, would risk it all for you
to prove my love is true
I'll build a wall around my heart
that would only break a part for you
Can change the way I feel
so tel me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say it's too late

Don't say, don't say it's too late

What now

Hey everybody,

Just typing this at work.
Yesterday I had a dinner from work because I have to leave DHL. It was a long day and I think it was a bit to long. And one of the things is that some people just don't know how to be there on time. 7pm isn't 7.30pm. We waited outside for a while where some of my collega's smoked. I was in the middle of it so I had some on my body, my clothes, everything. We had dinner at Mr. Jack's. That's close by the Waalkade but not on it. It's a Greece - Italien restaurant. I loved the food but in the end of the evening my stomach told me it didn't I felt blown up...like a balloon. I also began to feel tired. Cyn had sms'ed me that she went to bed. That's another reason why I wanted to go home. I promissed to not make it to late and I wanted to keep that promisse. So no desert for me. I had emailed and sms'ed Cyn a few times to keep her updated. Just as I promissed. So after the bill was paid it was time to go home. I drove a little bit to hard just to be home a little bit earlier. (Not that it would help but still). I hoped the smell was gone but to be sure I used some Deo. I also was afraid I had eaten garlic so my teeth had to be cleaner than clean zo that was the second thing I had to do. I hoped it was good enough but when I went to bed I found out that it wasn't. Cyn went to the attic to sleep there. I felt like shit. also because my stomach still was complaining and finally I could dump a large bit in the toilet. Not feeling much better I went to bed again and tried to sleep but it was after 2 when I finally fell asleep.

When my phone alarm rang it was 6.50am. Time to go up and go to work. My stomach is still not being nice to me. I am gonna drink a lot of tea today and hopefully my stomach will go easy on me.

Just I don't understand. Well, part of me does but. Well... Ok the trust is gone I know that and I am working on that. Even yesterday. But me smoking again. Ok I lied in the beginning, when I started quitting but now... I prefer killing myself than taking 1 single sip of a cigarette. No way I am gonna do that again. I am working on my weight and my condition and that won't work both when I start smoking again. And then I don't mention the money problem. I mean, Cyn already told me already again and again (and how much I hate her doing that but she is so damn right)but it costs alot of money. I could have bought a car with that money I spend on smoking. And maybe the most important reason of not going to smoke ever in my life again is Cyn. After the found out I lied about not smoking I made a promisse to not ever smoke again and till the day of today I kept that promisse so I don't feel ashamed, I don't feel like I did a bad thing or that I did something wrong. I kept my promisse, All of my promisses yesterday and I am damn proud of that!

Well, I think it's time to start working. I have my 3rd cup of tea standing next to me.

Till later people

Cheers,

Joyce

I survived.......

.... A free fall from 60 meters high with a velocity of aprox. 90 km/hour.

Example movie (not my own) but the right tower it is

So... Now I am gonna tell you how my day went. Ow, btw: sweety I hate you!!! ;)

In the beginning of this week Cyn mentioned that she wanted to go to WB movie park Germany on the first easter day. So that's what we did this week. Cyn her parents agreed in taking Chance for a day so we could go. We woke up at a few minutes before 8. Around 8.30 we left for Cyn her parents. Brutus slept at our place so we had 2 dogs to drop. Around 9.15 we left for Bottrop-Kirchhellen. When we arrived the parc was open already. We bought our tickets and walked through the entrance. There we saw The Pink Panter. We joined him for a picture :D .

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After the picture it was time for a toilet visit.

When we entered the streets of Movie World we saw Shrek 4D and we joined the line for the Dutch version since there was no English version. You entered a room and there you were told about Lord Farquad by the magic mirror. Then you entered another room where you could sit. At the entrance we received glasses which were needed in this room. They were yellow and so weird.

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We joined Shrek and Donkey in their way of rescuing Fiona again. We laughed a lot. I really enjoyed it. In the end they lived happily ever after.

The first roller coaster Cyn and I went on was Jimmy Neutron's Atomic Flyer in Nickland. George did not join us but he made picture. We waited half an hour. It was a nice first ride we made, but a little bit to childisch for us.

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After Jimmy Neutron we payed a visit to Ice Age. :D I really loved this ride. We sat in boats which brought us through the world of Ice Age. Scratch is so funny. When we walked through the exit there was an Ice Age Store. They had Scratch!!!! I did not buy it...yet.

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Now it was time for The Ghost Chasers (a.k.a. the "old" Tom & Jerry ride). George joined us in this one. He "drove" the car and hell no, he can NEVER do that again. hihihi. This was a bumpy ride :D . There was also wooden roller coaster with the name "the Bandit". Now it was time to have a look at this one. George joined the line but not the ride. He was not feeling well. And I said The Ghost Chasers was a bumpy ride... well... this one... I loved it. I really really loved it. It has everything a wooden roller coaster needs. Cyn and I did this ride with our hands in the air and it was hard to keep them there during the ride. But we both made it. We also made a ride in the MP Express. That's a hangin' roller coaster. I almost lost my earrings and Cyn too. But it was a nice ride and finally I was hanging upside down again. After this ride I almost died. And that's Cyn her fault ;) . She made me do it. I joined her in The High Fall. I really did not want to but Eva was not there (Eva I still blame you for this) and that's why I did it. I kept on calling "O my god" and the guy working at The High Fall told me I could also call him Markus. I thought going up was the worst part but I was sooooo wrong. Falling down was even worse. But I survived and I felt alive more than ever. Plus I was so damn hungry. Cyn bought some chicken nuggets with fries and a Sprite and a Beck's beer. I bought George and myself some noodles with a sauce. Geo had a sweet chili sauce. I had the hot one and what the f*ck that was hot. Too hot for me!!! I did not eat everything and was happy to drink something after it. Cyn and I walked into a souvenirs shop where I bought a NY cap because I was getting a little bit of a headache. With my new cap on my head we walked into the Crazy action stunt show. We really enjoyed the show and laughed so damn hard. Cyn made 3 video's. I really loved the last one.

After the show there was not much time left for us to do things. We went into 2 more attractions. The Danny Phantom Ghost Zone and Dora's Big River Adventure. The first one was the so called Mr. Cannibal in the Efteling. George is just like a little child in there and that's so lovely to see. In Dora's Big River Adventure we got very wet. Well, Cyn and George were worse than me. And I was in the front so that surprised me. Happily the weather was great and warm so we (they) dried very fast. It was almost time to go home now. (Damn this day went by so fast!!) First I wanted to buy a Scratt (the not yet part :D ). Now I am the happy owner of my own Scratt.

Scratt in the Ice Age ride
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After a great and warm day it was Swirl time :D



With a Swirl in our hands we split up. We only had 10 minutes before it was time to go home. Cyn wanted to buy a Dronkey and I wanted a Yoshi. And for the Yoshi I needed Geo his help (game qualities). After we played the game I did not win the Yoshi and neither did Geo. But we received a Kenny (South Park). I bought the Yoshi. I also bought Cyn some salt popcorn because she was asking all day for it. When we were walking towards Cyn they called that the park was closing because it was 6pm. We joined Cyn who was sitting on a bench eating her Swirl. We walked to the car, with a pit stop at the toilets. It was time to go home.

I really had a great time today and I hope you enjoy reading my blog.

xxx

Joyce